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yeah somehow i don't think she'd accept my appointment. don't think she'd like what i have to say.

kuma lisa was the one who did the detention so she's on my shit list too

and hey anyone is welcome to crash here!! no one else needed it okay

idk if i could explain it succinctly. there's so much to it and so much he doesn't know that i do

but it's the same with the other people from my home who know me from the future, and the gap there is much wider. i can't imagine what could have happened in over a decade.
they know things i don't and rightly haven't told me. they have to live with that knowledge just like i have to live with this

it's really bad, gideon. and he has no idea.

So you're giving up without even trying? Didn't think that was your style. Accepting defeat without even having a go.

Anyone. I'll remember that the next time I learn someone needs a place to crash. Harrow's very particular about her space, so I can't be as generous. So glad you're right next door so generous and kind and welcoming.

You don't have to be succinct, buddy. You could go on and on and on. I won't reveal a peep to him because I'm not a snitch.

That sounds rough. It sucks when you know things people don't. Not the same situation, but Harrow spent the first six months in Folkmore thinking it was fake, all in her head, that I was just in her head. Do you know how hard it is to convince someone you're real when they think you're fake? Thought she'd made a bubble universe. A friend of ours has done that before, so like that shit is real where we come from. It was such a weird nightmare that heavily weighed on everything we did. You can't exactly tell a girl you love her and kiss her when she thinks you're a figment of her imagination. Even if she went "Yes I love you too lets make out in bikinis," you couldn't just do that. Because she doesn't think it's really you. She thinks it's a fantasy of her own making.

There's a lot of shit back home. You might not be able to talk with him about it, but you can talk with him. You can be there for him however he needs. Because you have that glimpse into how bad it gets to help you make sure it doesn't get that bad here. It also means he can't help you process it, though. That's where you can turn to people you know from home from the future or new friends (hi i'm New Friends) or by yourself. That last one is the hardest. The thing is, as hard as that is, you're not helpless. There's so fucking much you can do, if you dare to.

okay fine

the reason i don't want to go is because i want nothing more at this moment than to explode her into a fine fucking mist and don't think telling me i can't would stop me from trying

maybe in the future i can try talking but i am not in the mood rn

i did try talking to him. he says all that nothing has changed between us but he only says that because he has no idea what's on the horizon

everything's changed

and he can't know because knowing it will completely wreck him

[Like it has with Gojo.]

and now he's here and he's in my apartment

like that's his fucking toothbrush is in the bathroom you know?

it's so absurd

i want him there but i also want to never see him ever again

i can understand why Harrow might think that way because this place is beyond absurd sometimes. i'm glad she's better now. that must have been heartbreaking to watch.

There it is. The honest truth. I appreciate it, I really do. Of course you'd try. That's you. I know we've only met recently, but I have really solid vibe checks for 'people's impulses to turn someone into fucking mist.' Also, seen it happen. 0/10 do not recommend getting eau de dad on you.

Talking to Thirteen can wait. Excellent decision making skills.

Ugh. Okay, so you tried to talk to him about ~*~the future~*~ He doesn't get it because it's the future and he can't see the future (as this demonstrates). God this is like one of those awful lab trials, maybe the siphoning one. That hurt like balls. Except this is all in the head.

Okay okay okay you're special grade at handling curses, time to special grade at emotions. You need to talk about this dumb fucking godawful future stuff without telling him it's the future stuff or you know... exploding his head/heart/emotions whatever. From having witnessed 10,000 year old drama (hey this is where the misting someone came in), it does NOT get better with age. Whatever the fucketh is going on probably has at least seeds right? If it didn't, it wouldn't worry you so much.

I haaaaaaate it, the above, totally do, I get it i get it, and you can complain to me 100% of the way because boy oh boy there is so much I got through via complaining, frontline titties of the fifth, and swordtime. (I could try to summon The Biggest Dicks of the Third for you if it'd help? you seem like a dick man more than a tits man ~~at least a certain dick man~~).

And maybe some day you'll no longer want to never see him again? ~~what the fuck did he doooooooooo, dude, I wanna know. Not asking. Not asking.~~

It was pretty fucking the worst. I ended up having to recruit other people to help me on Project Folkmore is Real to convince her. The fact we kept having alternate versions of ourselves arriving and disappearing and shit really didn't help. You missed the many Gojo era.

i tdid tell him a little. i was vague but i gave him what details i could. i know Nanami did too. oh yeah he's someone i went to school with who was a year behind me but now he's here and he's like 30 or something. that's a whole other story

i told him he had to listen to an apology. he didn't react much but tbh i know where he just came from at home and it was really fucking awful too. someone we were protecting got murdered in front of him. he thought the same person murdered me. he's shellshocked. so honestly how can i expect him to process all that stuff at once. i probably should have waited but i couldn't. i couldn't look at him another second without making him listen to me

i somehow need to like

separate him into two people in my head now

ghosts of Suguru past and future, haunting me in the present

the one thing i am sure of is that he will be better here. we're not sorcerers here. he had it probably the worst out of anyone. he can rest now. what worries me is that being taken from him against his will too soon. disappearing before he's ready to go, or waking up from a different point in his life.

i keep trying to remind myself i can't fix what happen but i can make things going forward better. cuz you're right, those seeds were planted, they festered, and now here we are. or here i am.

and if you're offering to conjure me up what i am assuming from the name is porn #1 wow what and #2 i'll take one of each

I'm really fortunate that everyone from my world is roughly from the same time. Sure, my dad is from farther along, but pretty sure all he's done is drink and ew sleep around since I saw him.

Oh, murder. Yeah, that's uh, been there, fucking sucks. I don't even remember what most people said to me after that. Don't take it personally if he wasn't following the apology. You can always apologize again later. If it helped you, that's good. Did some good.

That's the thing. Whatever the fuck awful shit happens by your time, that's not him yet. He's... this past version. And the future version, that's all in your head because that guy isn't here. You have who you have, and that's what you can focus on. Thirteen brought him here now, from the time he's from, not your future ghost of Suguru. People usually are here a good while before they wake up from a different point in their lives.

You two just have to be interesting, have to work on yourselves as you are now. Make it so Thirteen can't get what you two are doing here any other way and that's a damn good reason to keep things how they are. I know it must be damn near impossible to let go of that, hearing that so soon after you both got here, but I've been here a year and a half. Neither Harrow nor I have gotten older since we got here. Look to the lesbians in your life. It can be okay.

Better going forward is the right attitude. Those seeds haven't festered yet, not for him. That's what's most important. That's what you can do shit about.

You know it. And you're welcome.

then i guess i'm a gardener now. time to kill some weeds before they get out of hand.

somehow. idk how. i just need some time. this all happened so fast.

thanks gideon. i owe you. i guess next time the porn is on me.

The good news is you have some time and I'm here to help when you need it. I guess you could call this your proper welcome to folkmore because it's intense level of shit. (I got to break down a block of ice containing my own corpse to get my sword back, long story)

You're welcome. Keep the porn lesbian for me. You can have all the dicks.

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